Re: My Deepest Struggle

Re: My Deepest Struggle

After posting my last post I felt so free and light. I was absolutely terrified while filming that video and I almost didn’t post it. Now I’m so glad that I did. It was something that I knew I needed to do.

We all have a deep struggle. Nobody is perfect and sometimes I forget that. Making that video helped me put my guard down. I was able to connect with you guys on a deeper level. I struggle with letting people see the real me.

Before I end this post I want to show you guys these song lyrics. I had listened to this song before the video but now it means so much more.

You Say by Lauren Daigle

I keep fighting voices in my mind that say I’m not enough
Every single lie that tells me I will never measure up
Am I more than just the sum of every high and every low?
Remind me once again just who I am, because I need to know (ooh oh)You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours
And I believe (I), oh I believe (I)
What You say of me (I)
I believe The only thing that matters now is everything You think of me
In You I find my worth, in You I find my identity, (ooh oh)You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
And You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours
And I believe (I), oh I believe (I)
What You say of me (I)
Oh, I believe Taking all I have and now I’m laying it at Your feet
You have every failure God, and You’ll have every victory, (ooh oh)You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours
And I believe (I), oh I believe (I)
What You say of me (I)
I believe Oh I believe (I), yes I believe (I)
What You say of me (I)
Oh I believe (oh)

How do you let your guard down?

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Journaling Can Be Informal

Journaling Can Be Informal

Do you feel overwhelmed with the idea of starting a journal? Does it feel like some daunting task that people keep suggesting you do but you don’t know how to go about doing it? Today I am going to share some of my experiences that might help you.

As I have struggled with depression, journaling has helped me get out of my head and re-grounded. When I write in my journal it’s like talking to a friend. When you say things out loud or write them out you are able to see things from a clearer perspective. If you are in a super low state try just writing or drawing what you think the root of your depressive episode is or what caused you to get to this point. This will help you look at it with an outside perspective and guide you toward a healthier state of mind.

My mom had me start a journal when I was very young. Before I could write she would write for me and I would tell her what I wanted to say. Back then my journal consisted of trips to the store and what life was like with a new little brother. Nowadays I write about my life as a teen and my blogging experiences.

At first, I thought that if I had a fancy journal everything had to look cute and be laid out nicely. Then I switched to a notebook and felt more free to write. Choose what works best for you. Make sure that whatever you decide you can write freely and not feel like you need to “stay within the lines.”

At first you may not be able to journal every day. Start by journaling once a week. Write freely. No one is going to read it. You can even burn it if you want when you are finished. Journaling is just a healthy way to get your feelings out. There is great satisfaction in putting your thoughts down on paper.

The last thing to remember is that no one is perfect. I don’t write in my journal everyday. Sometimes I down right don’t want to. Your journal is personal. Nobody needs to know what’s in it or how often you write. Believe me, if you saw what kind of things were in my journal you would realize that we aren’t that different after all ;). I will be posting about different ways to write in your journal in the future.

Do you prefer to journal in a notebook or a fancy journal?