Re: My Deepest Struggle

Re: My Deepest Struggle

After posting my last post I felt so free and light. I was absolutely terrified while filming that video and I almost didn’t post it. Now I’m so glad that I did. It was something that I knew I needed to do.

We all have a deep struggle. Nobody is perfect and sometimes I forget that. Making that video helped me put my guard down. I was able to connect with you guys on a deeper level. I struggle with letting people see the real me.

Before I end this post I want to show you guys these song lyrics. I had listened to this song before the video but now it means so much more.

You Say by Lauren Daigle

I keep fighting voices in my mind that say I’m not enough
Every single lie that tells me I will never measure up
Am I more than just the sum of every high and every low?
Remind me once again just who I am, because I need to know (ooh oh)You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours
And I believe (I), oh I believe (I)
What You say of me (I)
I believe The only thing that matters now is everything You think of me
In You I find my worth, in You I find my identity, (ooh oh)You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
And You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours
And I believe (I), oh I believe (I)
What You say of me (I)
Oh, I believe Taking all I have and now I’m laying it at Your feet
You have every failure God, and You’ll have every victory, (ooh oh)You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours
And I believe (I), oh I believe (I)
What You say of me (I)
I believe Oh I believe (I), yes I believe (I)
What You say of me (I)
Oh I believe (oh)

How do you let your guard down?

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3 Tips For Improving Self Confidence

3 Tips For Improving Self Confidence

These days we teen girls struggle a whole lot with confidence. Sometimes I get pretty down about myself because I feel like I’m not cool enough or popular enough. I also don’t have social media so sometimes I feel out of the loop. In this post I’m going to share some tips on how I improve my self confidence.

1. Dress and Appearance

Photo Credit: My BFF

I feel a lot more confident when I wear one of my favorite outfits that are totally me. When I wear things that I think are cool I don’t feel as much myself. So for a week wear your favorite outfits that are totally you!

Now for appearance. I don’t wear makeup all the time but when I wash my face and deep condition my tight curls I feel just as beautiful as when I wear full face makeup. Try and go a day with little or no makeup and see how you feel!

2. Social Media

This is my actual home screen

So I don’t have social media. No Snapchat, Instagram, Twitter whatever. Sometimes it can be really hard because I feel left out and kind of weird. Then I realize that it’s nobody’s business whether or not you have social media. In fact, technology is so cool these days that you can personalize your phone and make it the you want. I am so much happier without social media because I’m not being inundated with pictures of other people’s “perfect” lives.

3. Personality

You may recognize that this character is from a show called the Backyardigans. This character’s name is Uniqua. Throughout the entire show you don’t know exactly what she is. That doesn’t matter though because she knows who she is and is confident in her skin. There is a quote that I saw once that says, “You were born an original, don’t die a copy.”- John Mason. I looove this quote!

As a blogger you have to find your niche. You don’t want your blog to be the same as everyone else’s. Each of us has a niche (personality).

To start, think about stuff that you love to do like music, singing, dance, soccer, art, computer programming? This is a piece of your personality! Next, ask people you are close to about your unique qualities. You’ll be surprised to see yourself from other people’s perspectives.

I by no means am always confident. I have my off days or even times when I feel like I’m not all that special but these things help me remember and gain confidence.

What do you do to improve your confidence?

Starting a Mom & Me Journal

Starting a Mom & Me Journal

Happy Valentines Day loves! I used to think Mom & Me Journal’s were kind of dorky. Then when I started to use a notebook to write things that were amazing about my mom I realized that it was pretty fun. We pass the notebook back and forth and when either of us are having a bad day or going through a deep struggle that notebook is there with a sweet note from the other person.

This might be a fun thing to try (especially since is Valentines). If you don’t have a mom or don’t want to do this with your mom do it with a sibling, a friend, a grandparent, a cousin, or your dad. This can help build stronger relationships with people in your life and give you someone you can reach out to in a time of need.

You can also use this journal to open up about things that are harder to say in person. Sometimes it can be easier to write things out as opposed to saying them to that person out loud.

I feel like sometimes we forget that Valentines Day is about more than love between a couple. I see it as a specific day to show love to the people you care most about. This is one of the ways that I do that personally. It has helped me see my mom as more of a person and less as the person that makes the rules.

What is something special you do with your mom or someone else you are close to?

Journaling Can Be Informal

Journaling Can Be Informal

Do you feel overwhelmed with the idea of starting a journal? Does it feel like some daunting task that people keep suggesting you do but you don’t know how to go about doing it? Today I am going to share some of my experiences that might help you.

As I have struggled with depression, journaling has helped me get out of my head and re-grounded. When I write in my journal it’s like talking to a friend. When you say things out loud or write them out you are able to see things from a clearer perspective. If you are in a super low state try just writing or drawing what you think the root of your depressive episode is or what caused you to get to this point. This will help you look at it with an outside perspective and guide you toward a healthier state of mind.

My mom had me start a journal when I was very young. Before I could write she would write for me and I would tell her what I wanted to say. Back then my journal consisted of trips to the store and what life was like with a new little brother. Nowadays I write about my life as a teen and my blogging experiences.

At first, I thought that if I had a fancy journal everything had to look cute and be laid out nicely. Then I switched to a notebook and felt more free to write. Choose what works best for you. Make sure that whatever you decide you can write freely and not feel like you need to “stay within the lines.”

At first you may not be able to journal every day. Start by journaling once a week. Write freely. No one is going to read it. You can even burn it if you want when you are finished. Journaling is just a healthy way to get your feelings out. There is great satisfaction in putting your thoughts down on paper.

The last thing to remember is that no one is perfect. I don’t write in my journal everyday. Sometimes I down right don’t want to. Your journal is personal. Nobody needs to know what’s in it or how often you write. Believe me, if you saw what kind of things were in my journal you would realize that we aren’t that different after all ;). I will be posting about different ways to write in your journal in the future.

Do you prefer to journal in a notebook or a fancy journal?

Life Goals

Life Goals

Hey everyone! I have been thinking a lot lately about the goals for my life. I am in my sophomore year and before I know it I will be out in the world going to college and starting life as an adult.

1. Get married

I have always planned to get married and have a family. When I was younger I wanted to have 12 kids but now that I babysit and am around lots of kids I am having second thoughts. Four or five kids sounds more reasonable.

2. Be a ranch owner on the big island in Hawaii

My family and I visited the Big Island of Hawaii several years ago looking at a job on a wellness farm. Ever since that trip I have been day dreaming of owning a dude ranch there (away from the volcano of course).

3. I want to be a successful blogger

Just recently I have a newfound passion for blogging! It comes pretty easily and I love sharing little bits of my life. I feel that I have come a long way since I started and I know that there is more to improve.

4. Have my own business

Ever since I was little I was selling things. When I was six or seven I started a paper airplane business. That didn’t work out so well. Being an entrepreneur has always drawn me in. I don’t know what kind of business I would start/run but the idea excites me.

What are your plans for the future? What would you like to see me post about in the future?

Some Sad News.

Some Sad News.

Hello everyone, I bet you guys can tell by the title of this post that it is not a super peppy post.

I have taken an unplanned hiatus from posting because I have been trying to figure out what I am going to do about my YouTube channel. First my camera was making a weird sound so I switched to a different one. Then I wasn’t able to publish the videos that I was making. This has led me to the decision to discontinue my YouTube Channel.

I hope that you all understand and that I need to make the best decision for me. Sometimes your plan isn’t God’s plan so I am doing what I think is right. I will still be posting on my blog because I feel like this is the right tack and I just wandered off of it a little bit.

Love you all!